SEARCHING444GOD is an ongoing project, both personal and political, by Alix Vargas.

SEARCHING444GOD explores themes around LOVE, CONNECTION, ONENESS, GRIEF, LOSS, HEARTBREAK, PRESENCE, PLEASURE, FREEDOM AND EVERYTHING IT MEANS TO BE TRULY ALIVE.

SEARCHING444GOD is rooted in the fundamental belief that everyone and everything is both alive, ancient, all-knowing, and above all - DESERVING of love, respect, autonomy, and freedom (TRUE freedom - such as the freedom from oppression, the freedom to not starve, the freedom to not freeze to death, the freedom of time and choice, and the freedom that comes by way of interconnection, reciprocity, and community that sees to it that all of our needs are met).

Alix Vargas is a queer, communist, anti-imperialist, abolitionist practitioner of love, as well as amateur poet, artist, and oracle.

Alix is inspired by the following:

• DEVOTION
• LOVE and PLEASURE as life forces
• volcanoes as agents of change via destruction and creation
• a good death > rebirth arc
• the personal and political implications of the practices of both presence and mortality consciousness
• change as the only fundamental truth
• connection to community, land, and lineage
• cycles, seasons, and spirals
• Audre Lorde's 'Uses of the Erotic: The Erotic as Power'

THE MORE I EXPAND MY CAPACITY FOR GRIEF,
THE MORE I EXPAND MY CAPACITY FOR JOY -
THE DEEPER I GO, THE HIGHER I GET ~